It might be important for you to know what my beliefs are.
I do believe in an “afterlife”. I believe that we are all manifestations of energy, and this energy cannot be destroyed, therefore I cannot be destroyed.
I do believe my “ego”, my sense of self as a seperate individuated entity can (and must) be destroyed. This body, this name I have, and this current sense of who I am (“man”, “american”, and all the adjectives I claim) are temporary and will fall off like the skin of a snake.
My attachments can be dissapated, and indeed must be dissapated in order for me to move on to another incarnation. In the next incarnation I will return (either to this plane or another) carrying the energetic remnants of all previous lives (karma), along with tendencies. So by no means do I think that dying is a way “out” of having to deal with my tendencies or the “effects” of my actions.
HOWEVER I do not believe in “heaven” or “hell” in the conventional sense of the words.
I believe “heaven” and “hell” are states of consciousness. They exist in the moment, whether dead or alive.
As Christ said, “the kingdom of Heaven is within you”.
Alas, so is hell. I’m in it right now.
Since consciousness is the means by which “reality” is created, I am sure that whatever state of consciousness I’m in when I leave this planet, that is where I will find myself. I believe we continue to create our reality wherever we are according to this concept. Hence, I do not want to exit the body until I have found some peace. That may take some time. This is why I am doing this project.
